Happy Birthday, dear Kak Sa!

A happy happy birthday to my dearest sister Kak Sa... yang so so far away from me..

Here's a smiley cake for you..

I could live without a best friend,
but I couldn't imagine my life without your smile in it.










Happy 25th birthday.
May Allah bless you and Adib.
=)

Aku Ingin Engkau Selalu Ada

Lagu ni untuk kau, Laila.

Peachy Quote 150410

"BETTER DO NOTHING,

THAN HALF DO MANY THINGS"

Terjemahan tidak rasmi: Baik jangan buat ape-ape, daripada buat banyak benda tapi sekerat-sekerat.

Aku rase cam nak karate orang je.

Wachaaa!

LABAH-LABAH SENGAL

Amaran: Ini entry geram.

Oh, dahla tengah sedih, ade plak lagi nak menambahkan keserabutan kepale hotak aku ni.

Hmm, ade sorang kakak at my school who thinks she can do everything. Yes, pendek kate everything lah.. Sume benda, sume kerja yang ada kat sekolah ni, sume die nak handle. Ok, niatmu itu memang suci lagi murni, dan disanjung tinggi oleh sesetengah pihak especially yang malas nak merajinkan diri mereka... Tapi masalahnya, kalau nak volunteer nak handle tu, handle la betul-betul. Masalahnye, kau sibuk nak handle, tapi dalam masa yang sama, kau menyusahkan hidup orang lain...hidup aku!

Tolonglah...dah tau diri sendiri tu banyak kerja, tak payah la nak sibuk-sibuk volunteer jadi itu ini, jadi guru pengiring pun die jugak, jadi setiausaha pun die jugak, tempah itu pun die, tempah ini pun die... Kalau kau rajin sangat nak buat itu ini, pastikan kau mampu buat. Mampu buat sorang-sorang, jangan sibuk-sibuk volunteer, pastu kau bagi arahan kat aku buat itu ini!

Nasib baikla aku ni masih under practicum, masih newbie lagi. Tapi memang aku sangat geram. Especially bila die suruh aku buat kerja yang sama dua kali. And my God! That is just NOT ME!!!

That is plain stupidity! &^%^%&*^$*!!!!!

Sangat tak sukela orang macam ni. Tak suke tengok die lagi. Kalau boleh aku nak cepat-cepat kerja ni berakhir, and don't want anything to do with you. Nak lari jauh-jauh!

Dalam 74 orang staff kat sekolah ni, cubela bagi orang lain yang bersenang-lenang tu buat kerja. First time aku jumpe orang macam ni. Orang yang sibuk nak buat sume bende. Gile kuasa ke ape?

Ape die ingat die tu labah-labah? Yang ade 8 tangan boleh buat banyak kerja dalam satu masa???

Lainla kalau die tu Kak Emi, yang ditapak tangannya dah tertulis: Orang yang boleh buat 8 kerja dalam satu masa.

Masalahnye aku, aku hanya boleh buat 1 kerja dalam 1 masa.

Ye, ini sirius!

Ade ko tengok aku berkapel sambil belajar? Tak, kan???

Itu maknenye, kalau aku tengah busy, jangan sibuk-sibuk nak suruh aku buat bende lain. Orang lain banyak la beb yang tengah goyang kaki!

Message for Kak H(bukan nama sebenar):

Even though I look up to you sometimes, but that doesn't mean that you can treat me like SHIT!!!

凸(`з´)

Semakin semakin aku tak suke nak jadi orang dewasa! Bencikkk!

It's a sad...sad week~

Sedih sangat.

Sedih sangat-sangat.

Kenapela saat-saat genting, dalam minggu terakhir yang sangat-sangat buat aku tertekan ni aku harus hadapi semua ni?

Kenape takde sape yang faham?

All I need is just a week.

Seminggu je. Seminggu!

I begged. But they just won't understand.

How can they understand if they never listen???

Kalau macam tu lebih baik tak payah cakap ape-ape kan?

Just imagine that you are in a very critical period of your life, and there is no one there to support you.

No one.

And yes, that is exactly where I am now.

…>_<…

Pre-loved Novel Addiction

I'm having an addiction. And it's not good.

I'm addicted to buying novels online.

Well no, that is not wrong at all.

What makes me feel guilty is, it's not a very good time to do so

No, it is really, it is really not a suitable time to do so

when I'm in the very critical period of my practicum,

and I have tonnes of stuff and lots lots and lots of writing that I need to put my head on it and settle.

Yet...

I still have time to keep on browsing from blog to blog like I can have all the time of the world[???]

And trust me, that is not okay..

But sometimes when it strikes, there is nothing really that I could do...

Last update:

Sis Qaseh: 5 novels - paid, posted and delivered

Cik Yuyun: 4 novels - paid, posted and delivered

Red Tulip: 2 novels - paid, posted and delivered


Sis Nazihah : 2 novels - paid, posted and delivered


Lady Arween: 
-1st batch: 4 novels - paid, posted and delivered
-2nd batch: 7 novels - paid, posted and delivered
-3rd batch: 4 novels reserved

Hehehe. Pre-loved ok... So for me, it's definitely worth the buy... kan...kan...

This month I'm aiming for Malay novels, next month we will go English Novels hunting plak.

Books are not made for furniture, but there is nothing else that so beautifully furnishes a house.

~ Henry Ward Beecher ~

quoted from Secondhand.reading

So right now, mesti stop. Seriously.

Next month kite sambung balik addiction ni.

Laila, kau jangan marah aku...

Mind My Rojak Language

Pada suatu petang yang bening tadi, semasa saya bergolek2 atas katil, saya telah menerima msg dari kawan baik saya yang berada nun jauh di Terengganu, Laila. Mesej die berbunyi:

"Yang kau tulis blog kau sume english2 kenape? mane aku reti bace."

Wah, dahla bagi salam pun tidak, mcm ala-ala terjah pun ade budak ni. Sambil tersengih-sengih kerang membaca msg, saye pun dengan senang hatinya mereply:

"Ape plak semua, cube kau tengok page blakang2, ade aku tulis b.melayu...sikit-sikit"

Hehe...yela2 lepas ni saya akan try blogging dalam fully malay pulak [???]

Seriusli.

Tapi... "I sound stupid when I blog in Malay." Hakhakhak.

Ke saye patut tri-bahasakan blog ni...hmm subject to put into consideration.

Apa pendapat korang? Malay+English+Arabic...Lesh? Ma bitusaddi'ni?

Hehehe. Ade hati...

Oklah, esok sekolah... Nite2. Tusbih 'alal khair.

Selamat malam, sayang.

Nobody Said It Was Easy

I listened to this song a while ago. It was a soundtrack of a movie. Couldn't remember the movie title but Josh Hartnet was in it. I didn't know the song title at first, but i tried to memorize some of the lyrics and googled it.

"Nobody said it was easy"

Someone I know/knew use this as his personal tagline. This song probably have something to do with it. Maybe. I don't know. I never asked.

Nobody said it was easy. Meaningful. And yes, it wasn't easy for me.

Very beautiful song. Relax and enjoy.

What Type of Guy Do I Belong With

Hehe, sangat tidak ada kerja semasa cuti Good Friday ini...

What Type of Guy Do You Belong With

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Smart Guy

Relax! I didn't say geek or nerd, I said Smart Guy. This means he's more intellegent than most, but thinks deeper than anyoen you'll know, making him very romantic and sweet. Don't worry he'll let you cheat off his paper once in a while ;)

Ye, memang saya minat smart guys ni...hehe. I always hope that my guy would be someone I could talk with, someone who would have the answer to all my questions, or at least help me to find the answer.

Nak try jugak? Klik sini.

And by the way, have a splendid day!

For Chuckie

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Pia @ Pya (by almost all of my friends)
2. Titi (by fam only)
3. Peach @ Pi Chan (by sasa)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. aki chan
2. p_spike
3. peach_pi

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my thoughts
2. my loyalty though sometimes loyalty is overrated
3. my reliability... yup, you can count on me

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my unexpected moods
2. my angry-driver-symptom(dunno if this term even exist!)
3. my laziness

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. melayu (mak's)
2. melanau (abah's)
3. kedayan (abah's)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. monkey
2. yes, i don't watch horror movies anymore
3. clown

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. coffee(a-must!)
2. perfume.. currently im wearing Believe by Britney Spears
3. water

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. shorts (hehe im at home ma...)
2. black t-shirt
3. spectacles??? wtf

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Lenka
2. Leona Lewis
3. Natasha Bedingfield

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. go shopping alone
2. drive long-distant alone
3. go on a vacation alone

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. honesty
2. communication
3. laughter

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I miss Chul-soo
2. I was lost in a night market when I was five.
3. I like to eat apple.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair (the shorter the better)
2. arms
3. height

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. get all my works done
2. forgive certain someones
3. let things go

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. read novels
2. eat
3. watch movies

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. find the energy to clean the kitchen
2. go out wherever
3. buy tonnes of novels

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Lawyer
2. Lecturer
3. Full-time housewife

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Spain
2. Niagara Falls
3. Egypt

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. SHAKIR which means "someone who appreciates"
2. SHASZA which means "fragrance"
3. SHIRAZ is a place somewhere in Iran

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married
2. buy a house
3. be happy

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. I wear shorts and t-shirt
2. My room is a disaster
3. I wake up late when im not working

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK
1. I love shopping
2. I love beauty products
3. I cry all the time

THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. Denzel Washington
2. Eminem
3. Alexander James McLean

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Laila
2. Everyone
3. and I do mean you...

Live Like You're Dying

One of these days you'll be

Under the covers you'll be

Under the table and you'll realize

That all of your days are numbered

All of them one to one hundred

All of them millions

All of them trillions

So what are you gonna do with them all?

You can not trade them in for more, no no...

Take every moment, you know that you own them

It's all you can do

Use what's been given to you...

Gimme a reason

to fight the feeling

That there's nothing here for me

'Cause none of it's easy

I know it wasn't meant to be

I know it's all up to me

It's all up to me

So what am I gonna do with my time, oh...

Take every moment, you know that you own them

It's all up to you to do whatever you choose

Live like you're dying and never stop trying

It's all you can do

Use what's been given to you

All of the moments you didn't notice

Gone in the blink of an eye

And all of the feelings you can't help feeling

No matter how you try...

I keep on getting flashbacks of him...

Tolong! macam mane nak padam ni???

HAPPY

Ok. It's official.

My Life Starts Today.

Brand new.

Free.

Like A Bird.

I am leaving everything behind.

No living in memories anymore.

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I'm just trying to be happy

Just wanna be "Happy"

Smile an everlasting smile

Me: Wedding die indah sangat... aku rasa rendah diri... memang bukan jodoh kan, sebab memang aku tak layak untuk die. Nasib baik dari awal-awal aku dah sedar dan tarik diri...tapi yang hairannye, sekarang aku rasa tenang, tenang sangat-sangat.

Laila: Alhamdulillah. Yang layak menentukan siape yang tak layak tu hanya Allah. Kau jangan rase rendah diri sangat. Mungkin kau lebih bertakwa berbanding dia. Kau rase tenang tu tandanya kau redha...

Me: Aku tak tau ape yang aku rasa. Muka die dan isteri die masih terbayang-bayang jugak kadang-kadang. Aku rasa aku sedih sikit. Tapi tetap hari ni, kuhadapi dengan tenang. Aku tengok muke aku sendiri depan cermin pun aku senyum. Ko rase aku patut buang ke simpan video kawen die tu?

Laila: Memang macam tu...Kite akan tenang pada hari yang kite tau je. Tapi akan terkacau jugakla dengan kenangan lalu yang dah jadi pahit. Ntahlaa...kalau tak sayang sangat, tak payah kot.

Me: Aku ok je. Aku dah dapat terima hakikat. Kadang-kadang aku persoalkan jugak kenape harus die muncul sekejap dalam hidup aku...kan lebih baik kalau die tak muncul langsung... Tapi ku tau, tu semua, asam garam untuk aku teruskan hidup ni. Hati aku kosong sekarang...takde sesiapa lagi. Tapi mungkin ade terselit sikit-sikit rase kagum+cemburu... aku manusia biasa...

Laila: Memang sakit, yang datang dan pergi sekelip mata. Tapi bagi aku better dari tak pernah datang. Walau seseorang datang hanya untuk mengecewakan, tapi terlalu banyak pengajaran.

Texting stop right there.

And I'm so glad I have her during this period of time. Cuz only she would understand. Cuz she knows this story since day one.

Lagu kat bawah ni adalah sangat berkait dengan aku sekarang. No, I like this long before I knew about him getting married, but little that I know that I would be there, having the exact feeling and thoughts as hers. The only different was, she was there at his wedding, and I watch his wedding video.

Happy by Leona Lewis

And... by the end of the video, I had the same smile as hers.